Salt; apples and snakes

I've had to make yet another life-changing decision. Not so much as (my erstwhile) earth-shattering one, but still. I was on a course determined by circumstance, and I made the choice to stick to it...until a carrot got dangled in my face *flips weave*.

According to the bible, I'm from a lineage of women who don't listen. When told not to do things, we do them. Rule number 1 was: Do not eat the forbidden fruit. Eve ate the forbidden fruit (although, Adam is actually the one who "ate" the fruit while Eve got friendly with the snake). Lot's wife turned back after being told not to and subsequently turned into a pillar of salt. I relate to both these women. Temptations are hard to fight off. And turning back to catch one more glance of a place that harboured sentimental value is an involuntary response.

Eve wanted something she's never had, and was told couldn't have. She's an ambitious curious young woman who got tired of being boxed and being exposed to a redundant routine. Her body needed to taste a new flavour and being the go-getter that she is, she went out and satisfied her curiosity...breaking ground, breaking rules, LIVING. Ok, so God wasn't impressed. But He knew it would happen. That's why she wasn't banished to hell. She just got evicted out of Eden and had enough sex to procreate two kids.

Lot's wife, being a descendant of Eve herself, knew and understood of the pleasures of the body and knew of the yearnings of the heart. The body can be controlled - by the mind. However, the mind is too familiar with the middle finger the heart flashes in its "face". No matter what we are told, or by whom: when you love something/someone, that's the only voice you'll ever hear...and the only one you'll listen to. Sometimes to your own detriment. Sentimental value is an unhealthy little concept that promotes an attachment to something that's incredibly hard to let go of. Lot's wife had a home in Sodom, and looked back to satisfy the yearnings of her heart...to her own detriment.

I've just made a decision that encapsulates the decision-makings and involuntary actions of both these women. Or at least, I assumed I made the decision. It was pre-determined. We all know that God has mapped out our lives. He knew about the cross-roads, and He knew which course I would take. He had planned it all. From the moment He woke up and decided to create the world, he knew how everyone of us would turn out. The test tube babies have ruined it all though and confused Him a bit. Hence all these disasters. But he knew Eve would give it up. He knew Mrs Lot would turn to salt. He knew I would be a combination of these two women and that his punishments wouldn't be as extreme. I'm about to go after something I've never had. The salt business...I'll leave that up to the Eve in me to sort out.